16 07, 2018

Ok, I surrender!

It’s been a full-on week and last night I was too tired to write something for our Saturday Darshan page, so I left it until this morning.

I usually sleep for about 6 hours at night, but last night it was almost 9 hours. After catching up on a few emails I opened up the mailchimp to write you something, but nothing was there. I went out and sat in the sun for a bit of inspiration and went back to sleep.

I was aware that the sun was very hot and so after about 20 minutes I came back in the house and went to sleep again for another half hour. I was well aware of my brain energy being low and a bit flattened from the busy week, but came back to the computer again with the thought that perhaps I would share a chapter from one of my books.

I opened the files of ‘Fairy Stories’ and skimmed through a couple of chapters and was quite taken by the writing, thinking to myself that I should perhaps read some of this book  sometime, as I rarely go back to them once written and published. Anyway, I thought the chapters were too long to include here.

So, I glanced around the desk for some inspiration and then thought that perhaps I would reach up for one of Yogananda’s books for a bit of inspiration and then I thought…

“You know what? I surrender. It’s not meant to be today.”

Normally, I just sit at the keys and something is given to write about, but today, it looks like I need a rest.

I wish you all a wonderful Darshan this Sunday and a lovely weekend.

With my deepest love and blessings.


Ok, I surrender!2018-07-16T09:49:31+00:00
9 07, 2018

Understanding Love


I had a knowing as a child that the majority of people didn’t understand what love is. But, neither did I when I was that young person. So, I had this knowing, but I didn’t know the answer and would not understand until many years later.

How do you explain that to people? Well you can’t because understanding love is a process of inner transformation.

Love is nothing to do with how you feel about another person, animal or thing. Those strong feelings that we might have for others are emotional attachments and connections which bring a reflection of good, powerful and passionate feelings. Where can you find the word love in those words? You can’t because it isn’t there.

This is just one small example of how we use words to mean something without really thinking about the words and what their true meaning is.

Coming back to the nature of love, one way that it may be possible to understand it is through the emotion of excitement. Strange you might think, but pure excitement is the energy that is created within us when the Universe is communicating directly with our heart.

If you follow the feelings of excitement and truly feel them deeply, then you will feel a certain guidance behind the feeling and that guidance is the God-consciousness letting you know that you should follow the excitement as that will lead to you being uplifted into the energy of love.

Excitement is not love, but it is a doorway to love. The energy of the universe is love. The stars that puncture the dark blanket of night sprinkle love upon the earth whilst the sun rests. We are never without a firmament of light and light is love, even though sometimes there may be a few clouds in the way.

When two hearts are truly bonded with the light of love, it doesn’t really have anything to do with those emotional feelings, but it has everything to do with understanding the truth of what is binding them together and when two hearts are bound in such a way, not in, but with the light of univeral love, then no man can ever put that assunder. For it is out of man’s hands. It is Unversal Love that binds them and man has absolutely no control over that.

So, when those hearts are bound, what great intellegence is bringing them together, walking with them, guiding them and bringing itself into their lives?

And you may even ask the questions, why is does this happen? How can this happen?

The answer is because their is a massive guiding hand that plays a huge part in our lives and our work is to learn how to open and align with it and align with the mission it has planned for our lives in this world and our salvation in the next.

If we make no effort to align with that higher purpose, life is nothing more than passing time.

With my deepest Love and Blessings for a wonderful Darshan this Sunday.


Understanding Love2018-07-09T13:32:20+00:00
2 07, 2018

Take a day off!


I had a couple of days off this week and spent some time with a friend in London. We had planned some time ago to visit a healer we know and then enjoy an afternoon meditation with his group.

It was a great day and I met an old client from almost 20 years ago who was assisting on the day. What a wonderful surprise to see her and see how she is doing. She has unfolded and blossomed into a lovely divine spark bringing her own light into the world.

When the meditation began, I was out cold within seconds. We had a little mantra to say and I barely got it round once before I was gone. Speaking later with my friend, it was the same for him too. We both agreed that it was a very deep process that will unfold for some time to come.

When you are working with light all the time it is easy to surrender to the process of another teacher and let go in the knowledge that you will be carried quickly into some deep and divine experience. So, it’s a little bit like being on a busman’s holiday. Take a day off and go and sit in someone else’s light. It’s a wonderful way to spend some time.

Now Sunday is almost upon us again and I’m ready to transmit my Darshan Blessing to you all. What a priviledge to be able bring light into the heart of another person in the absolute knowledge that it is going to open them at some level. Some profoundly, some subtly, but one thing is for sure, when you step forward the Universal Consciousness is going to take every opportunity to help you. Seek and you shall find. Ask and it is given. That is what Darshan is all about. Asking and then being open to receive.

Last week I was given a poem to write. The words were just given, I typed them and I posted it to you without even thinking about it other than knowing that the words were powerful. As the week unfolded, I began to truly realise that the words were for me rather than anyone else. I knew the source of them. It is the source that originally gave me The Emerald Heart Light to bring into the world in 2005. They are from my guide and saviour. Some of you know that source and others might guess it from the light that shines through me in your presence.

Anyway, it was about change and transformation. Time to let go again and open to receive the next process of evolution, although I’m not totally sure of what I am letting go of yet, although I do have a good feeling about moving into the next phase. The poem says it all really and so I thought I would leave it here below for those who didn’t see it last week. There were some wonderful comments from some of you who really felt the light in the words and therefore, drank from the well of their origin. It is my great pleasure to share them again.

I Saw a Light upon a Hill

I saw a light upon a hill,
I climbed towards it as it called me.
I rose above the milling crowds,
I saw that no-one saw me.

I sat and looked in deep dismay,
Their eyes looked each and every way,
But upward, where I sat and prayed,
And pointed to the light before me.

They cannot see, the light called down.
You cannot show them what you’ve found.
Their eyes are fixed upon the ground,
And will not rise above the sound,
Of voices clamouring aloud,
For something less than you have found.

I stood between the light above,
Upon that hill where I saw love,
And shouted down to those I loved,
Twas all, ALL humanity.

Up here, this way, raise your eyes,
Open from your deep disguise,
Find your heart beneath its eyes,
Of blindness that the ego claps,
In irons, so dastardly and false,
Your truth to hide within the traps,
Of nothing but your other self.

The self that guides your eyes away,
From what I see this day.
The Light upon the hill that calls,
And I must go that way.

I’ll leave a lamp lit by the way,
So you may see it when you pray,
In deepest reverence, one day.
To find that path I walked.
To find that love that talked,
Upon the hill that day.

With my deepest Love and Blessings for a wonderful Darshan this Sunday.


Take a day off!2018-07-02T09:48:33+00:00
11 06, 2018

As the Light gently opens your heart


As the Light gently opens your heart,

It reveals to you who you are.

It isn’t a quick process because it is a process.

It is gentle.

It warms you from within.

It enlightens you from within.

Then a little at a time you see your truth,

The reason you chose to come here,

To see the work you came to do.

And as your heart opens, slowly, gently, over time,

Your Light shines out into the world.

Healing all who fall into its rays.


With your light you will help humanity to overcome limitation,

and emerge in triumphant transformation.

That is merely one of the gifts you will receive,

As YOUR LIGHT emerges into our world.

With my Deepest Love and Blessings.


As the Light gently opens your heart2018-06-11T10:19:38+00:00
4 06, 2018

On the Edge of Eternity


Whilst helping a colleague recently, it was a great privilege to see the golden thread of life. Whilst working with other colleagues too, it was also a privilege to see their consciousness opening up to reveal the limitations of certain past lives. All of these individuals have worked with me for a number of years. One in particular has worked with me for close on 20 years and the evolutionary process continues to reveal the most wonderful and amazing images as these people pass through ever deeper transformation.

In certain individuals, this inner transformation is the magnificence of the Divine Feminine pouring through them from the source, as she births into this world and in this process a great transformation must unfold in order for the individual to hold that energy. Their whole consciousness must shift from one perception of reality into another. The letting go process of one life in order to emerge into the next expression of life, whilst in a single incarnation is quite unbelievable to experience, the depth is so great.

As transformation takes you, it can be turbulent and magnificent at the same time. The consciousness suddenly begins to experience reality differently and you have no choice but to leave the old you behind and open yourself for what is to come, without having a clue what that new experience will be like.

My colleague experienced such a powerful release of the past that it seemed like it might take him into the next life, but as always, no matter how dramatic the process of inner transformation, there is always a Divine Presence guarding and guiding your transformation. You have no choice other than to let go and go with the process.

My colleague is particularly gifted visually and we seem to be able to perceive into similar frequencies of light and therefore, we both see the same thing when working together, which is a great confirmation of what might be happening.

In this particular instance, as I looked in to his consciousness to help him understand his process, I could see the fine golden thread that provides us with life in this physical reality. When all energy structures and consciousness are put aside, all that is left is this extremely fine golden thread that is the be all and end all of what we are. We literally hang here by a thread. A thread of Golden Light. If that thread breaks, then there is nothing. Life is extinguished and the being ceases to be.

Yet there is something else visible and perceived. It is the eternity that the nature of life returns to. In one second life can cease, but at the same moment, the energy and consciousness of life transforms. Life never ceases, it just recoils back into the source of all consciousness, a great lake of love and wisdom; an ocean of possibility.

My colleague was experiencing a past-life where he saw the Golden Thread break. He experienced the momentary horror of losing life with such intensity that the imagery persisted within his matrix, returning in this life as a part of his healing journey. He saw and experienced his own Golden Thread of Life, as I did in order to help him understand his process. Working together, we unravelled the imagery and pieced together the puzzle. All the while, the nature of eternity was watching the process unfold and at a certain level was allowing waves of comfort to bathe his life.

Transformation is a wonderful thing, it turns caterpillars into butterflies and humans into enlightened beings filled with light.

That is where we all sit, on the edge of eternity, our lives suspended by the finest Golden Thread and if we are lucky enough, we get to witness the truth of it and experience it in a way where mere words cannot possibly suffice, leaving our understanding of reality changed forever.

With my Deepest Love and Blessings.


On the Edge of Eternity2018-06-04T10:34:46+00:00
28 05, 2018

Courage and Forgiveness


Just a little white lie is all it takes to pervert the whole of the consciousness of humanity.

Did you ever think about the impact of your thoughts?

A thought is like the proverbial pebble in a pool, sending out ripples to the edge of eternity. When good thoughts manifest at the centre of your being, they radiate light outwards into the soup of life, which we can call the Collective Consciousness. The Collective Consciousness is indeed very soupy and all people drink unconsciously from the contents of the soup each day. It touches all of us and influences all of us in ways that most of us may not be aware.

If you think about the Collective Consciousness as a kind of mist that surrounds the earth, maybe about 20 feet deep (7 metres) you can see how we spend all of our time in this soupy mist, but of course we can’t see it.

We can’t see it but it touches all of us and our emotional body, to a certain degree processes the soup constantly. A simple explanation of the soup goes like this. If there is a powerful or interesting program on the TV on a particular night that attracts many people, then the following day people will say to you, “Did you see that program last night?” It will probably be the talk of the work place. All thoughts and conversations will be around the subject.

If the program as perhaps a major international sporting event and your country won, then there will be celebration and elation and an uplifting vibe. But if the program was a violent, dark drama with explicit scenes that have touched people deeply, then they will carry those images into the Collective Consciousness the following day in their conversations. What is more potent though is that their feelings in the Emotional Body will be fully engaged in the darkness. The ripples of these pour into the soup and the weight of the soup becomes heavier and the content darker.

Two films come to mind that triggered people’s darker sides many years ago. One was A Clockwork Orange and the other was Easy Rider. Almost immediately after seeing these films a number of people committed serious crimes and even murder as a result of the heightened emotional charge in their system. This same energy was also poured into the soup by thousands of people who had seen those films.

If we looked at all the dramas, documentaries and films on TV today and categorised them on a scale of one to ten based on their dark or light content, you would find that the balance would come out in favour of the darkness. Whatever you take in from the media is going to influence your emotions and the power of emotional energy is then going to pour into the soup.

People often find themselves in difficult situations where they might have made slight errors of judgement on a day to day basis and when caught out, it is more natural for most people to try to eliminate the pain of their embarrassment by not quite telling the truth about the situation. That is when the roller coaster of deceit gathers speed towards the soup. One little white lie might then lead to another and another and another and before you know it, you’ve stitched yourself into a place that you can’t get out of.

The reason people commit this injury to themselves is primarily because humanity struggles with a lack of courage and an inability to easily forgive.

The lack of courage enters the game at the moment the person is cornered. Human consciousness finds it easier to try and talk its way out of a difficult situation rather than find the courage to admit to their error.

Part of this issue is caused by the fact that others find it very difficult to forgive, but rather make an issue out of a small error of judgement.

The emotional content of this game can multiply and magnify to a massive degree very quickly, leading some people to commit heinous acts in the process of trying to avoid being caught out.

We need to remember that none of us are perfect. We all make errors of judgement, but there is little or no tolerance to allow people to make errors of judgement in our society. On the other side of the coin, the offender experiences the crippling fear of being caught out, having to confess and being ridiculed and abused for their error.

If we can find the courage to own up or apologise when an error is made, then the soup will be a lot clearer. If a friend makes a mistake, be quick to let them know that it was a good lesson that they can learn from rather than causing them additional pain, and in that way the ripples that flow out from this tiny rock in space will carry more love than pain into the Universe and will therefore attract more of the good than the difficult.

It all comes down to Courage and Forgiveness. Indeed, it can sometimes take great courage to forgive.

With my Deepest Love and Blessings.


Courage and Forgiveness2018-05-28T10:35:53+00:00
21 05, 2018

Am I trying too hard?


Do You Try Too Hard?

Is the Spiritual Path easy?
If you are doing it well and correctly, then the answer for most people is probably no. If you think you have nothing to learn about how the Universe works, then you will be inhabiting the temporary delusion of illusion.

How long will it take me to get anywhere?
You have no idea as each person’s journey is different.

How do I know if I’m getting anywhere?
The answer comes in confirmations from the Universe.

Some people have a natural gift with languages and others find it almost impossible to get their head around pronunciation, meanings, cultural understandings and just the plain difficulty of reading or speaking in another tongue. The Spiritual Path is like that too. For some, they are in alignment with it, but for most it seems almost impossible to get anywhere.

Those who struggle most are usually the ones who are trying too hard. The ones that doubt their progress are probably doing quite well.

The first thing you need to learn are the Universal Laws. They are the language that makes the whole game of enlightenment function. Without knowing the rules of the game, how are you ever going to be able to play it?

The Universal Laws are also the language of the heart, but as a species, the heart is an organ that most people have yet to develop. Firstly, most people develop their language of the energy system and their sensitivity to the energies that surround them, both man-made and natural. Developing the ability to feel and then later see what is just beyond the limited 7 frequencies of the electro-magnetic spectrum that shows us our world begins to open the first layers of your potential for flowering.

When you consider that the E.M. spectrum is almost endless, the fact that we can only see into 7 of its frequencies might just give an indication of how limited we are until we can see and perceive beyond these.

Anyway, let’s not get too deep just yet.

When Light begins to call us, it is wise to trust it, but at the same time be aware of our feelings so that we become discerning as to if the light is doing us any good or not. For example, someone who is just beginning to awaken may be wasting their time sitting with a fully enlightened spiritual master and expect to get much from their teaching. Why? Because they have not yet had the heart opening experiences necessary to walk in those exalted footsteps and understand where they are leading. Of course, sitting in the light of the master may well have a profound effect if the student’s heart is truly ready to open and receive a shot of light. Can you see the conundrum here?

You might choose to follow all the great teachers of your time, but the governing factor is how much light your heart is ready to receive based upon your life path, which is determined by the Universal Consciousness that guides your life.

If your soul is ready to accelerate you at a great rate of knots, then certainly you will know it by the challenges you suddenly face in life. But if your soul chooses to take you upon a gentler journey of rich experiences, then it will take longer to attain a measure of enlightenment that you are certain has taken place.

So, what is the answer to this conundrum of, ‘how fast can I go?’

There are many aspects to this answer, but to try and simplify it, the key word is balance closely followed by the word harmony.

If you are drawn to sit in the light of a great teacher, then afterwards, allow the teacher’s words, light, or both, time to penetrate your system deeply. This may take a week or two. Then ask yourself, did I benefit from this immersion? If you are sure you benefitted, then do it again and again until you benefit no longer. Then it is time to move on.

Sometimes you may sit in the light of an Avatar and feel little in the moment, but in the days following there may be illumination or great challenges that arise. Both are pretty good signs that this has helped you on your journey, even though in the early days you may not be able to understand how.

The balance comes as a result of the harmony gained when you know you were in the right place. Don’t push it. Take your time. If you need to be pushed, then the Universe will push you.

One powerful lesson that I learned early on my path is that there is no such thing as negativity. It is only the way we perceive an energy as it touches our lives. For one person, it may be perceived as negative and for another it may be perceived as positive. But if the energy challenges you in any way, then it is your Divine opportunity for growth by finding the answer as to why?

The next time you experience a difficulty, challenge or what might appear to be a negative experience, just remind yourself how small you are in the understanding of the great Universal Game.

You have no idea how God chooses to work in the person standing next to you. You have no idea how God is going to use the conduit of another person to bring you a challenging lesson of something you need to work out or let go of on your journey towards enlightenment. So, the best thing you can do, whenever you experience something that pushes one of your buttons is to be very quiet inside, other than to ask yourself one simple question.

What am I trying to learn from this?

When you find the answer that is often the moment that creates a huge shift in your vibrational rate; the light bulb moment, which in turn opens the conscious understanding of the heart and moves you further towards enlightenment.

Some of us are here to change the world and some of us are here to change our selves, but we are not the ones who decide which is which. That choice resides with the Love that Guides all Beings.

With my deepest love and blessings.


Am I trying too hard?2018-05-21T07:47:24+00:00
15 05, 2018

This week, Just a Sweet Thought!



Mix with water…

See how thick it becomes…

Then think about blood. How thick is blood?

Mix with SUGAR with Blood.

Imagine the pressure that the heart has to cope with.


Seed of all LIFE…

Mix Water with Blood.

Blood becomes thinner and the heart does not need to worry so much about pumping the life blood around your body.

The Heart does not have to think too much of survival.

I can think of Love and Life, rather than how to cope..

Love your Heart. Drink Water!

Drink Water and your Heart will Love You.

And you will become Love.

Wishing you all a wonderful Darshan this Sunday.

With my deepest love and blessings.


This week, Just a Sweet Thought!2018-05-15T10:25:30+00:00
7 05, 2018

Ego – The Delusion of Two Selves


Some think that there is only light, and once you put the darkness down, indeed there is only light. But the distance between the two is a long, long road and unlikely to be attained in even a handful of lifetimes.

If it is your thinking that you are now only light, then that is where the delusion begins. The moment that you realise that you are full of darkness; that is where the truth begins.

Truth is where the journey begins. Acceptance of the ugliness of the ego is where progress begins and that is the moment when you first attract the help of the universe.

The effort it takes to dissolve one ounce of ego from who you think you are, takes more energy than trying to climb Mount Everest with one leg, one arm and one lung. So, don’t even kid yourself that you’ve started. If you begin your journey into light from this perspective, then surely, you will make progress up the mountain.

The Kingdom is like a woman carrying a jar full of flour.
Whilst walking on a long road, the handle of the jar broke. The flour streamed out behind her on the road.
As she did not know it, she could not be troubled by it.
When she had reached her house, she put the jar on the ground;
She found it empty.

Jesus in the Gospel of Thomas

In the teaching above, the flour is your ego that you wear like some bedraggled raincoat. Because you have been wearing it for so long, it has become a part of you and you cannot experience the difference between your ego-self and a Divine expression of life. Essentially, we project ourselves into the world as our ego-selves until we begin to see that there is someone else inside the raincoat and that the raincoat is not actually who we are.

As the flour streams out of the jar, it is like the raincoat dissolving and falling to pieces with age and eventually dropping from your shoulders. The Divine you is revealed.  But indeed, this is a long, long road. Lifetime after lifetime your ego streams away a little at a time as you learn to tread life’s highway of teaching.

The more you work to become aware of your ego, how it works to gather reflections from others in order to feed its own illusion of self-delusion; how it is an essential being in its own right and not a part of your Divine self, then you can begin to see it in action, feeding the needs of itself.

If, like the woman above, you eventually arrive at your Divine self, all your flour having left your jar; your container, your life, then all you will be is you. You will be you but without thought of the identity of who you were or are now. If you think that you have made it and gone beyond ego, then you haven’t.

It is only when you can stand in the state of being-ness without any identification to any particular thought about your journey, then you have made it, and then of course, it doesn’t matter.

In the line from the teaching above that speaks about the woman reaching her house, this refers to the heart opening fully and the inner light beaming forth into this world. That is the point at which you become light and you will no longer be troubled by the process of dissolving the darkness that maintains the ego structure.

Let us try and put this into simple terms. If you are certain that you have made progress in dissolving any aspect of your ego, then you probably haven’t.

If you ‘know’ what the struggle would be like in trying to climb Mount Everest with one leg, one arm and one lung, then you are on your way to making some progress.

Unless there is a moment of Divine Intervention in your life, then the journey, indeed will be long, but with daily effort, progress will be made and in that process, you will begin to understand the nature of darkness and how much of it is in every atom of your being.

Humanity is nothing more than a virus consuming the face of a beautiful mother who tries endlessly to support it. When you can see that and feel the pain of it, then you are on your way.

I wish you all a wonderful journey into understanding the challenge of duality we are blessed with, on our journey into light together – For we are all ONE!

With my deepest love and blessings.


Ego – The Delusion of Two Selves2018-05-07T09:43:16+00:00
29 04, 2018

The Shadow of Death


Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil…

On the spiritual path, sometimes we have to pass through the darkness. Indeed, if light comes into our being, it will illuminate the darkness. If our own inner light goes through an illumination process, it too will stimulate darkness to rise from the hidden depths of our consciousness to be released through our heart.

The shadow of death is nothing more than a shadow. It is not death, for there is no death of the essential being that is our inner light. We are eternal but merely wearing this cloak of disguise whilst we walk through the valley of this physical experience.

Our shadow is cast as light shines upon our ego, that part of us that makes itself known in the world, that communes with others and shows itself to be what it is, a construct in which our truth is hidden until such time that our true self comes forward to be seen from the source of the light within us. At that point there is no shadow, only light.

When we walk in the light of a teacher, that light will show you your shadow, which may at times cause you great pain as you see your own truth reflected back to you. As we walk our path through life, it is often strewn with the difficulties that our ego-self has created for us to learn from. As we back-track into the shadow we have an opportunity to clear and dissolve the energy of any difficulties that we have left in our shadow.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will see only the strife that I have created for myself, but I will fear no evil from the pain I experience, as this is the cleansing of the my shadow. As my shadow is released, so I will dwell more within my own light and that eternal light that comes to cleanse me.

Where there is light, then I will see my shadow and I will be uplifted in the knowledge that a great light is showing it to me so that I might transcend this place of inner pain and darkness, so that I might live in a higher way, exalted and risen from the shadow of death that followed me.

I am light. I choose to walk in light and therefore at times I will see and feel the shadow of death, the shadow that kills my heart, but I will not fear, for the light that showed me my shadow, is also that which will dissolve it’s darkness and lift me beyond any place that I could possibly imagine.

The Shadow of Death is nothing more than the small things that you have gathered around yourself that are slightly less than wholesome. Slightly distant from Divine. As you learn how to walk a path of light, so your shadow will dissolve away and you will shine as the light that you are.

As the light of this week’s Darshan flows into your heart, it may just dissolve some of your shadow without you even knowing it. That is the blessing of the Divine at work.

With My Deepest Love and Blessings.


The Shadow of Death2018-04-29T09:48:01+00:00